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TEN YEARS OF LISTENING TO: lcd soundsystem

see also: TEN YEARS OF LISTENING TO: rainer maria

It’s the last day of August and it’s like summer in New York is making one last effort to remind us how fucking miserable she can be: overcast but still too bright, air thick and hazy and nearly one hundred degrees. It’s mid-afternoon and I’m hungover as all hell walking down Grand Street alone listening to LCD Soundsystem which somehow feels appropriate, somehow seems to encapsulate all the things I’m thinking right now.

New York I love you but you’re bringing me down. If I could see all my friends tonight. Wasted and complacent. We set controls for the heart of the sun, one of the ways that we show our age

LCD Soundsystem’s 2005 album, that double disc one in the white paper sleeve, was one of the first albums I ever worked on, when I interned at Capitol Records my freshman year of college. I messengered posters of it to Bowery Ballroom, handed out stickers at Siren Fest.  I listened to the CD on my clunky Discman on the bus ride to and from New Jersey. 

It’s a funny thing, writing about music: the reviews are easy, pointless, and lord knows there’s dozens of them I’ve written in years past floating around the internet.  But music reviews are never anything you care about, and maybe that’s why I gave it up, and why I gave up being paid to ask other people to write them too.  Bag of adjectives and a word limit and an arbitrary rating; who gives? None of that sticks with you.

Other things do. You hear a song, you buy an album, and then eight, ten years later, there you are walking around the same city with the same song in your ears, with millions of memories since you first heard it. 

Underground at the old Annex, that smoke-filled long-forgotten little hole, where was it, Orchard or Ludlow? I’m maybe 19 or 20, we’re all bad electroclash mullets and skinny jeans, vodka Red Bulls and Camel Lights, those first beats of “Daft Punk” whaaa whaaamp whaaamp whampp and everyone starts dancing again. 23 and laying in the bath in that terrible railroad apartment on Bedford Ave, bottle of wine melodramatically in hand, closing my eyes, and it feels like i’m in love again but not with you, i’ll just tell myself it’s you. Drumming my hands on the steering wheel of my mom’s Jeep driving to the beach with Jonas, yeah yeah yeah, yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah. 

And here I am now, 28, hungover, on the worst possible day of the year, listening to “All My Friends” for the something-thousandth time and wandering downtown on streets I’ve wandered for ten years. That joy and nostalgia and sadness and shame and shamelessness and wonder all at the same time:  i wouldn’t trade one stupid decision for another five years of life.

I flail through life: here I am, me and my little fists at the ends of my spaghetti arms whacking on every door I can, eating up every last thing and every last experience I can manage, more, more, more. And somehow it’s all still keeping itself together, somehow here I am, full speed ahead, marveling at everything that’s been and happened, all the apartments and jobs and homes and lives, all the friends and all the love I’ve had and lost and gained again.

CSS f/ SSION - City Girl

Do you all understand the number of times I have gotten off a bus at that very station (most of this is filmed inside the Port Authority) with a bag of shit and made myself up/gotten changed in that exact bathroom? (OK, so I ususally used the one in the south wing where there’s a counter so you don’t have to to dump stuff in the sink, but still.) It’s like a damn rite of passage if you spent years relegated to the Jersey suburbs and relied on NJ Transit and a very large purse to negotiate the necessary clothes-and-makeup transition.  

That said, where can I get some hand bling glove things like that? THIS IS IMPORTANT.

A BETTER VERSION OF ME: TEN YEARS OF LISTENING TO RAINER MARIA

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Every time I get into one of those All Time Desert Island Top Five conversations, I hesitate.  I usually go for the safe,  the safe and obvious — Radiohead, The Pixies, New Order, Gang of Four, maybe like Sleater Kinney or the Yeah Yeah Yeahs? But I’m always lying.  Because the thing I always hesitate to admit is this: one of my favorite bands, and the band I have seen live more than any other, ever, is actually Rainer Maria.

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That’s me, age 16, in a mall, holding a Frappochino, wearing a Rainer Maria shirt I made.

I don’t remember where, when, or how I first discovered the band — my best guess is on a mix or from one track that took me an hour to download from a nascent Napster.  But I remember saving babysitting money to buy their CDs from Sound Exchange, the independent record store in my town, and biking home to pour over the liner notes while I listened to them.  Rainer Maria was the only band I’d heard with the melodic rawness I’d come to love in bands like Braid and Alkaline Trio, but with a girl, and less violent and stupid, and with something else, something that seemed cool and too smart, something that seemed like how I saw myself.  They wrote songs about Abraham Lincoln and Walt Whitman, they were named after a poet.  Clearly this was something different, something I needed to love. 

The context for this is, I suppose, is that I was born in the mid-80s and grew up in fucking New Jersey, a veritable mecca of hair gel, tanning beds, and strip malls.  But it was a breeding ground for that now oft-maligned genre of our collective teenage shame – emo, which admittedly constituted a significant portion of my teenage identity, years before Jimmy Eat World records started going platinum.  Between the ages of 13 and 16 my life revolved entirely around mixes from friends, crappy shows in American Legion hall basements, and college radio, facilitated by information I consumed ravenously from LiveJournal and an early Pitchfork Media, via the 14.4k modem my parents acquired when I was in the ninth grade.

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Living in a town where “not tanning” and “taking an art class” was all it took to make you “subversive” was torture to my oh-so-misunderstood teenage self: Rainer Maria gave me a promise.  My best friend and I would cut school to take the New Jersey Transit bus to New York, though we never knew what to do there.  We did what we thought we should do and waited in the places we thought we should be — bought books at the Strand, records at Other Music, ate pizza.  We shared my headphones waiting for the train at Broadway-Lafayette, one earbud in each of our ears, listening to the CD of A Better Version Of Me, which I’d just bought.

It seemed, at the time, that Caitlin de Marrais was actually singing about a better version of me, the one I could become.  I too could one day live in Brooklyn and be a literary and complicated redhead (that Caithlin and Jenny Lewis are partially responsible for my ginger conversion at the age of 16 is undeniable) and wear Victorian blouses and skinny jeans tucked into boots.  It seemed so sophisticated in comparison to my cropped hair and Converse sneakers. One day I too would have a complicated love life, a college education’s worth of pretentious literary references, and a knowledge of New York geography (the skyline is two gazes long, going nowhere on the BQE, pick me up on A & 9th) to drop into my songs to make up for a limited vocal range. Caithlin de Marrais was precisely who my maudlin, sheltered sixteen-year-old self knew I could be the moment I escaped New Jersey.  Never before had it been more obvious an option as it was on that train platform as I’ve seen the girl who will pick up where I left off, she’s already smoothing her hands for the pictures…I know I should drop everything and let her sing she’s a better version of me strained through tinny headphone speakers into my ears.

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I guess when I was 17 “taking a photo with the singer of the band” seemed like a cool thing to do

I saw them live for the first time on Valentine’s Day of my senior year of high school, in the echoing, shadowy chapel of the college (Vassar) that I had recently been accepted to.  The next autumn, having escaped the suburbs at long last, I flung myself with wholehearted naiveté into becoming an “Interesting College Student/Intellectual English Major.” But as I surrounded myself with books, sweaters, and mismatched earth-toned dorm room bedding, something I had long suspected began to concretize for the first time as well, in the form of a dark-haired girl from New York who would come to visit another friend at Vassar.  We went to a Le Tigre show at the campus center, and back in her friend’s room she smiled at me and held my hand under the blanket and my body froze at the electric warmth of her so near.  She gave me a sterile kiss on the cheek and apologized for not having any time alone with me, and mentioned that she had Rainer Maria tickets in a few weeks, did I want to come?

I took the Metro North south to Grand Central, and we made our way to Northsix, the filthy Brooklyn venue that has since become the Bowery-Presents-owned chrome-finished Music Hall of Williamsburg.  Her boyfriend bought us Sparks at a bodega, which we drank out of paper bags sitting on the broken concrete near the Kent waterfront (I know, I know) before the show.  Later, I pressed myself up against the stage and sang along to every word, while she fought with her boyfriend outside.

He broke up with her (via text message) on our way home, and I consoled her on the train ride back, her head heavy in my lap.  There was nowhere to sleep in her tiny Manhattan apartment but in her bed, and she clung to me throughout the night, her breath warm on the back of my neck, her hand on the small of my back.  I left the next morning after another apology and sterile kiss on the cheek, and walked to the train with a joy of anticipation or self-actualization or understanding rising in my chest.  There was a smaller sinking feeling in my stomach, and the suspicion that I had definitely cheated on my long-distance high-school boyfriend, though I was unsure why, as the evening’s most illicit incident had been a twenty-one year old buying beer for my eighteen year old self. 

I wrote in a small black notebook on the train back upstate: Went to see Rainer Maria last night, in Brooklyn. I stared at the page for a while, unsure of what else to write, since I felt like Something Important had happened.  Instead I carefully printed the lyrics: Save me some time. I’ve always wanted to wake up, on the Lower East Side. You want me completely and I’m ready and it’s fine, and so I begin the double life.

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my dorm room, sophomore year of college

For the next few years I would see every show that Rainer Maria played in New York, including their last, which I would go to just hours after flying back from a semester living in Prague.  Jet-lagged and alone, I lingered at the back rather than pressing myself against the stage, although I still knew the words.  "Living in New York" and "dressing kinda arty" no longer held the mysterious, elite appeal it did when I was fifteen, and I was deeply ashamed of my screamo-heavy, mall-shopping suburban history — patently uncool amongst my city-raised I-have-wealthy-artist-parents classmates.  An awareness of issues beyond “not fitting in at my high school” had developed, and I was conflicted by how self-indulgent the songs now seemed.  My new life in New York, a developing career in the music industry, and my time in Prague (naturally filled with electroclash, a new haircut, and a terribly affected sense of self) had caused something else: a guilty suspicion that this just wasn’t cool.  I left torn between embarrassment and a strange nostalgia for the person I had been when I loved them with such unbridled enthusiasm.  

Five years later, all of this is, of course, hilariously petty.  I’m sort of an adult now, with a day job and a live-in girlfriend and a lease I signed for and bills I pay, usually on time.   My teenage image of who I would be in my mid twenties is oddly accurate, although shifted: I publish my writing differently than I thought I would, and I’m a blonde now, not a redhead.  But as it turns out, there’s nothing especially glamorous about being a grown-up and living in New York.  There are times that I feel cheated by how unglamorous the whole thing actually is — the drudgery of the commute, rude taxi drivers, roaches, Excel spreadsheets of personal budgets.  I often feel old, old and boring.

But Rainer Maria is still on my iPod, every last song they’ve ever recorded, and I still listen to them more often than I want to admit.  Strangely, I think my lingering affinity stems from the fact that the songs somehow manage to re-romanticize for me the shocking ordinariness of what it’s actually like to be a creative professional in New York.  Somehow they bring back a nostalgia for the version of myself I am now, but as I saw that self ten years ago – the girl who will pick up where I leave off, the girl who will beat through all the hell and high water threatening what she believes.  She’s a better version of me.

 

sewing a weave. into a wig.  GLAMOROUS.

I told you so! (Scroll back two posts.) This year’s Pretentious Slutoween Because Hey I Won’t Have These Legs Forever costume was Diane Lane in Ladies and Gentlmen The Fabulous Stains, which seemed to be met with either blank stares or really, really enthusiastic recognition, which is half of what’s so fun about movie character costumes. (Though last year everyone seemed to think my Pris costume was, like, “Taylor Momsen.”)  

Shirt from American Apparel, tights from H+M, makeup and a bra and shoes and boyshort bikini bottoms and a coat I already had, and one exciting shopping expedition to get a wig plus some weave is all this one took.

And now for something completely different…

Maybe it’s just the fact that after all this time I still feel like that Kills album can make basically ANYTHING seem badass (Alison Mosshart’s awesomeness: it is contagious) but this made me want some weird old house to lounge around in wearing a billion layers flipping my hair around in a major way. 

Only Girl in the World (Rihanna cover)

by Xiu Xiu

Xiu Xiu - Only Girl in the World (Rihanna cover)

You guys, this is kind of major and hands down absolutely TOTALLY worthy of its own last-minute post at 12:07 AM half an hour after the internet has finally returned in a reliable fashion to my horrifically overheated apartment.  But I mean, seriously.   XIU XIU x RI RI?!??! 

Source SoundCloud / the3penguins

mtv generation

I don’t know about you guys, but in my head the entire world basically exists through a wide-angle or fisheye lens in a room with quirky wallpaper or maybe on some street corner/field/highway in LA/fire escape and then run through some super cross-processed high contrast or desaturated sepia filter. We have already noticed this little 24mm addiction problem I have, yes? There also are a lot of ball-chain necklaces and girls with short hair in baseball teeshirts and/or slipdresses and boots, also brooding men often wearing nail polish. 

Possibly there is something wrong with me, or maybe it was just that (despite my parents’ valiant efforts to the contrary!) I was exposed to an excess of these mid-to-late-90s music videos during my formative years? Either way, bonus points for every last one of them here that you can identify.  

Also, someone needs to explain to me why I haven’t been hit over the head with an excess of fashion editorials styled, coloured, and edited like this yet?  I’m over all this Avedon-revival and Slimane-clone clean B+W portraits thing, bring me back some Yelena Yemchuk and Juergen Teller and early Steven Klein colours and angles, please.

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Apparently, VH1’s bringing this back.  Oh, hell yes. 

Unfortunately, the availability of Pop-Up Videos (or more accurately, the heartbreaking lack thereof) on the internet at this point is intensely disappointing. I remember them with such astounding clarity! Brandy and Monica “The Boy Is Mine!” The slit in Monica’s skirt at around 2:45 was added by a stylist to compete with Brandy’s sexed-up outfit there! I remember this thirteen years later! How! Why is this not on the internet! WHY?! And that whole episode of Sabrina, The Teenage Witch where they imitated it? AM I THE ONLY ONE WHO REMEMBERS THIS. 

In the meantime, another present from the rusty mid-90’s archives of Viacom networks back before Jersey Shore was, like, a thing — in case you were not yet aware of it, the entirely of Undressed can be watched online. Like for free. Yes.  Don’t pretend like you didn’t watch it and change the channel frantically the second your parents walked in the room (perhaps you, too, had something innocuous, like a nature show, or golf, stored in the memory button on the remote for fast switching?), because we all know you did. And, wait — Is that Adam Brody? Katee Sackhoff? Christina Hendricks? Yes, yes it is.

PS: Five bucks (or at least my unwavering gratitude for the rest of eternity) if you can dig up the pop-up version of that Brandy/Monica video for me. Seriously.  

A COMPREHENSIVE CATALOG OF THE (HIGHLY INTELLECTUAL) FEELINGS I WAS HAVING UPON VIEWING KREAYSHAWN’S “GUCCI GUCCI” VIDEO FOR THE FIRST TIME.

1. This just looks like the crowd on Saturdays at WarmUp at P.S. 1.

2. I want to hate this. Maybe I want to have Intelligent Feelings About Things I Could Find Wrong Or Stupid About This?  I should be offended by this shouldn’t I, I should not like this. This is probably Not Okay.

3. ALTERNATIVE LIFESTYLE HAIRCUTS. I totally had that asymmetrical half-bob-half-pixie thing in 2008.

4. Actually, I’m just going to be over it. Internet vomit. Didn’t someone say this looked like Tumblr made a music video? It looks like Tumblr made a music video.

5. Gucci Gucci Louis Louis Fendi Fendi Praaaaada

6. Serious alternative lifestyle haircuts, again.  I kind of miss short hair? No I don’t. Yes I do. No I don’t. Yes I do.

7. "Basic bitches," kind of brilliant. 

8. Okay. This low-slung baggy-ish-but-still-slim light denim jeans with a crop top thing I NEED THIS I NEED THIS ALWAYS

9. God, I really want to hate this. 

10. I really want Lil Debbie’s glasses. Like really want them, and like yesterday. Also that dark lipstick. What colour is this. 

11. Nosering connected to earring? Yes please. 

12. This is just so uncomfortable. But it’s funny. But it’s terrible. But it’s so good.

13. I really, really want to hate this. 

14. I think I like this.  Like maybe even non-ironically. Like I might actually think this is cool. 

15. Is this so-bad-it’s-good, or just bad, or just good?

16. But it’s so last-week, isn’t it? I’m so behind on keeping up with my internet music meme trends. Whatever it was my birthday I wasn’t paying attention.

17. Basic bitches wear that shit so I don’t even boooother SO GOOD, THAT HOOK IS SO GOOD

18. I need a serious manicure ASAP, where can I get a weird manicure in New York, do I want like Keith Haring or a fruit salad or weird eyeballs or something

19. Why are all white people now trying to dress like black people dressed 20 years ago, should I be having more #appropriationfieldday Feelings right now

20. I still want those jeans

21. This is really catchy 

22. I DON’T WANT TO LIKE THIS

23. I wonder if Sarah ever got one of those 80s Gucci sweatshirts we were stalking all over the internet, if she didn’t maybe I can now

24. I think I like this

25. Also: If this is what dykes (correct me if I’m wrong on this, o internet, but I’m pretty damn sure) on the West coast are doing, New York, we need to step it up, like RTFN.

I’M AT THE FASHION PARTY I’M WEARING FASHION PANTS

Das Racist - Fashion Party (w/Chairlift) 

This is like sooooo last season but I figure any song that drops Balenciaga, Michel Foucault, sample sales, hummus, interns, the Taliban, mountain men, Gucci visors from the dollar store, mispronunciations of “Lanvin,” and Facehunter is probably still worth your time a few months late.   JUST IN CASE YOU DIDN’T REALISE IT WAS NYFW AGAIN, Y’ALL!

ICON: ALISON MOSSHART

The Kills - Satellite by DominoRecordCo

The fact that The Kills are coming out with a new album and that the first single is officially on the internets means that I get to resume talking about the infinite coolness and superior style of Alison Mosshart again without sounding, like, sooo 2008, right? I mean, SERIOUSLY though. Can you find me another broad who looks this cool? No. I didn’t think so.

Let the gold-Dior-homme-boot and leopard-print-button-down-shirt worshipping commence, after the jump.

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new york hardcore

I’m sorry, how cool are these?  This summer I queued-to-post-but-didn’t (this is how this blog actually works, by the way, as if it was run by a CRAZY PERSON)  KT Auleta’s hardcore-inspired spread with Tasha Tilberg from Twin Magazine, because it, I don’t know, felt weird and stylized and like too clean or something, and I felt like I was maybe only into it because they totally made her look like the girls I had crushes on in high school when I was going to craptacular NJ hardcore/emo shows before I actually knew that I had crushes on them and thought I just wanted their moshpit sweat/haircut in like a really intense way or something, and because the styling was just, like, how I dress on a daily basis anyhow.

SO here as a replacement half a year later, we can post these actual photos from the hardcore scene in NYC from the days before CBGB was a John Varvatos store, which are way more awesome than any Twin editorials anyhow.  Also, the lady that took them supposedly ended up being in The Silence of the Lambs and Grey’s Anatomy? Oh, okay. More after the jump. [via SB+TVC]

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